all alone

my day-BORISHLY (if this damn word doesnt exist,i dun fkin care),boring!!

lol,wanted to go for basketball when honky called me,but i had a damn achy back for nt sleeping well that nite(damn!)...so i didnt go,besides,it rained...lol

last week,went to seoul garden again,whee...cooked like 2 plates of meat,wow...den had lotsa food,here's wad i ate:
1 whole plate of chicken slices (char siew,szechuan and bulgogi flavours)
1 whole plate of beef slices (bulgogi,something,and no flavour at all)
5 chicken drumlets
2 plates of spaghetti
2 ridiculously mushy siew mais
3 pieces of sushi(t),cos dere wasnt the salmon one,wtf?
1 cockle (not even worth mentioning)
1 plate of veggies (musnt forget veggies)
1 loh mai kai
1 bowl of shaved ice (diet flavoured,yep)
3 scoops of strawberry ice-cream (dat's all they've got man)
5 glasses of sprite/coke/lemonade concoction


RESULT!: had to limp when walking,felt like vomiting when walking past gelare and vinn's,some more toilet was like next to the foodcourt...i almost puked....lol,den went to play pool till 12.30,den walked home via the flyover,was so shiok man..haha

yesterday,played bb for quite long,was tiring,but lots of fun,den dinner at koufu,bak chor mee,ol classic....den walked home again...haha

i feel so damn alone man,i felt like killing myself thinking about valentine's,im entirely hopeless about love,i dun anybody's pity,but i could do wif some useful help and courage,i wasn't born a casanova,i wont change girlfriends like changing clothes,i dun see the need to change ur girlfriend so many times,(our school is densely populated wif jerks like those,i shan't name who,cos 1stly,too many of them,2ndly,dey deserve to burn in hell in eternal damnation),if u reli love ur girlfriend,u wld cherish her,nt flirt,nor find a temporary salvation in another girl juz bcos she is 'hot',chio or popular,u deserve to die if u think dat way...i juz hope someone up there will help me to pluck up some courage to ask her,cos i still like her a lot...sigh

lefty the righty left-right

hmm...that doesnt actually mean anything,its juz a character's name from The Simpsons..haha

went to pick xiaoye up today,man has he grown fatter,he's now like 91kg,peh and his neck fat,much "floatier",hmmm....he didnt exercise? oh well,den went down for a good ol' game o' basketball,i swear(swearing is not good,don't try it at home kids)..playing in the dark is detrimental to health,hehe,u cant see the freaking ball,we played like morons,mel lau-chiew,i stepped out of the court,zac missed,xiaoye passed to air,yusong couldnt shoot properly,it was terrible,but fun,haha,no sun! totally cooling and i needed the exercise,staying @ home to rot is a horrible thing to do

submitting the JAE application was hard,it was hard to make choices,so i maxed out everything,i inputed the closest to my score,accountancy (WTF?)...it was weird,but i put media 2nd,i didnt know why,oh wait,the bleeding COP was 12,even with my CCA bonus deducted,i may not get in,that sux....

Gee,getting b3 for english sux,not preparing better sux more,ain't it?

sad stuff aside,i will prove that i can eat any type of food,bring it on accountancy! i will conquer u!!! [note:its not really courage and bravery,its more of the author's sup sup suay attitude to life,eg:got clothes can la!,eg:plain rice with vegetables? can la!]

cool,chalet soon....booya!!!! me so dam extied for dem barbakill,ai kand evan spill!

SIGNING OFF
DLC:P

fourteen nineteen

got back my o results already....just sux man...cant get into mass comm....brian got in...surprisingly...at least he buckled down to study and got 11 pts...me? 14...peh...gay marks...nw i can onli apply for stuff like business or accountancy,sian!!! budden i juz submitted a JPSAE form to apply for mass comm...lucky i gt Ngee Ann credentials for winning the HYSE thing...(heng ah)...haha...poor thing for many sia,especially 4e2...alot of them going ITE...some even no where to go..confirm feeling sux...but some ppl (not even worth mentioning)...didnt even bothered to study...some still play maple(not play la...CHIONG)..deserved it la...cry no tears out ah u 2...

i cant say im not satisfied la...at least im qualified for a jc...haha..but my english was the most disappointing!!! i gt a b3?? why??? cos i didnt do argumentative cos there wasnt any for me to do....bitch cambridge....grrr....and surprisingly enough...i got b4 for amaths...WOW!!!! and A2 for Humanities!!! WOWS!!! chem was oso disappointing...fook...c5? why,cos im colourblind? bitch cambridge.....ker see hoh la! still ah, i regret not studying la..

that aside...while sitting there with anticipation...i saw **** @ the 5N* booth...i couldnt help but juz tried to sneak peeks at her...and maybe she saw me,perhaps im thinking too much..

i reli cant express myself...and im truly aware of wads going on...but pardon my thick-skinned-ness...so many things on my mind...so little ways to express it...i seriously dunno wad to do wif my life anymore...sorrow,misfortune,ambiguity,loneliness,discoloured,cold and especially cold...all lumped inside me...no way could i feel any way less accepted by anything or anyone..u hav ur reasons, and my perfect reason for getaway is my lack of balls ness

wtf

the day juz sux noeing wad has been 'false hope' appeared to be real,sigh,the light of "HOPE" is faint and feint,THE REALISATION JUZ SUX LAR,IM HOPELESS LER!