who works hard for the money?

i firmly believe that if you work hard for something, you'll eventually receive what you wished for in due time. though sometimes, luck just doesn't want to co-operate with you, he mocks at you instead. i can't freaking believe i got a C+ for Entrepreneurship after doing all that shit. it's NOT WORTH THE TIME AND EFFORT LAAAAAA. FUCK. those business school students in my group suck balls, i wish they'd itch to death (inspired by their visible dandruff flakes). FUCKKKKK

project-based subjects aside, if you didn't work/pay attention hard enough, i don't think that effort will reciprocate itself to you 'nyway. it just doesn't work out. that way, rich bums will get richer and the poor ones will get poorer. if you're gonna do badly for everything, the world doesn't become your debtor, neither should you complain and whine and whine and whine and flare at anyone. if there's anyone you think owes you something, check the mirror, i think its there.

by typing this, i think i've just made 20349308 enemies.

-SIGNING OFF
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dental aftermath

things not to do while eating, talk on the phone and read the papers, all at the same time.

i stabbed into a nice, golden-brown, fried potato wedge with my fork, only to bring sheer pain to my teeth when i bit the metal tip with much force (hey, the force came from hunger aight.) now, it trembles with pain when i drink cold water, wonderful.

i think i said something wrong again. i've been given the cold shoulder by a certain someone, shan't mention any names here. i have been un-featured as it is, i guess harsh words leave marks eh? it's really pointless and spiteful, that's all i have to say. have fun hating me.

indigestion.really.sucks.

-SIGNING OFF
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zooooooooooooooooooooooom

this is the fastest in Singapore and still other countries are faster than this.

pulau blakang mati

gosh, have i been barking up the wrong tree. i think nobody should ever continue being nice to those who don't deserve it. at some point, they 'thank' you for you efforts, then if you remove the goodwill, they start whining or cursing at you.

the proverb, 不听老人言，吃亏在眼 (or loosely translated to mean: don't listen to old man speak, bite dust just in front! ) is as truthful as the existence of soil. i failed to listen to my dad on something and indeed something stupid happened at the end to me. made me regret up till this day. similar for some, when you tell somebody something based on experience and knowledge, they take no heed to your advice. think this: a driver sees a 'road-out' sign and continues to drive forward anyway, what happens next? the driver falls into a gap/pit/cesspool/crater/hole and dies.

i distinctively recall me giving advice to my juniors to study on certain important points, boy was it funny. the results were disastrous, don't get me wrong, not because they've listened, but because didn't know about the above mentioned proverb. who laughed last? the little devil that watches over them, that's who. and also, me, cos i took my senior's advice and dug my way out of a banishment that would forever scar my future.

i'd rather be the one being brutally uncaring and honest than be the one wearing a mask with selfish intentions to deceive. but no, @ (someone who dealt some damage to me before) chose to remain oblivious, euphoric and blind to the hidden facade of sunny singapore. it's really self-defeating, really. how can somebody whine and whimper to something and choose to do virtually nothing to amend the problem, or rather, even, ATTEND to the issue at hand? i foolishly chose to intercept and amend as a third-party, not only did i land myself in more problems, i was blamed. i don't know what for, my my... let's get this straight, if you're going to sit around and do nothing, nobody's going to reach out their helping hands, because you didn't deserve it in the first place!

and after all this hoo-hah, not only was i shunned of a word of thanks, seems like "i'm not friend enough."
ha.ha.ha. high-lair-rios. i sometimes wonder, why am i so nosy in the first place? i should be the selfish jackass that i AM, why bother? i don't get humans and human nature, its just.....very unpredictable. go figure.
here's a quote from a song to YOU(don't worry, if you didn't feel something crawling up your back, it isn't referring to you.)
"if you could make everybody work while you just lay on your back, would you do it?"

anyhoo, i think i should lay off new year goodies, indigestion is not funny. also, i kept dreaming of really weird stuff, like how brian was revived by an uncle with a walking cane when he was hit by a falling commercial airliner and how ahmeng can lose a leg and grow a new one in 5 seconds. lol. must be the additives.

-SIGNING OFF
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the mr kek song

Since the first day we've known him, he's given these to us:
12: sets of maths notes
11: stacks of worksheets
10: times when he said he's not going to show up but eventually did
9: freaking f9s
8: whiteboard markers
7: distinctions
6: australian maths competition forms
5: tall storiesssssssssss

4: waterbottarllls
3: henchmen (mr lee, mr ho, lai may may)
2: balls of stress
and 100% amaths passes.

sing to tune of "12 days of christmas" it's quite impossible but have fun!

-SIGNING OFF
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ps, i need to find more things to do.

and so that concludes a long fifteen days

this was one chinese new year that i'll never forget

1.) had to study for the exams
1.1) wasted my fucking time. (you know who you are)
2.) sudden surge of ang pows
3.) so much hebi hiam and pineapple tarts (i used much instead of many, go figure)
4.) this.

after releasing those stress-balls (exams ring any bells?) in thy body, i've reached a high, posthaste. it wasn't a good feeling, it was something that was more of a rush rush job, something i don't really like doing (even though that's what i always do or end up doing). so high, so confused, so tempted, so many sweet nothings.

i've always chucked this thought in a corner, never wanting to rethink about it, i was afraid, so many things i've heard about, so much so, it's a gamble i wasn't ready to place a bet upon, but still eventually did..........and lost. maybe things could've been better if i just kept my trap shut, things couldn't have changed, we'll still be the same bunch of people we've seen and known for that long 5 or 6 years. no nudges or teasing is ever going to spur that stress anymore, it just doesn't respond to anything anymore.

i don't know if anybody's ever known, i've never been ok when it comes to handling negative responses. some part of me just wants to run, then the other part of me wants to fight it. till they both want to convert and just face the reality unleashed upon them. i believe that sounds a wee bit like christianity, but yea. prolly few of you, my close friends will know this part of me.

this chucklehouse isn't always open, i'm not a 24/7 happy fun time box. but i'll stay open as long as possible, just to feed those stricken with unhappiness.


ps: heads up! i'm writing a song about mr kek to a relatively well known christmas jingle, so be sure to watch out! why am i doing this? it's a nice reality escape la.

-SIGNING OFF
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a wonderful fairyland adventure awaits! ...................not.

seriously, children, get a fucking life, use your fucking eyes and take a second to look around you, everything you touch is reality and hence,

Wakey wakey, time to get the fuck off storybook land ! if you can't take life then be in hell, they make you take all sorts of shit by force.

there's no such thing as a guarantee, this is Singapore, not your dream house. and stay away from the drugs ,kids. the world doesn't fucking revolve around you and your pubis is a pathway to maturity.

you know, airheads like you don't deserve a place in this world, don't argue with me when you know you're gonna lose, cos you don't know your facts and you claim you do. just watch out for every fucking step you take. somebody's watching and that person isn't pleased. (pssssst, itts noooot meeee.)

now back to studying



-SIGNING OFF
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risky business

i hate it when you try to help an oblivious person, it zeros your effort entirely, the concern, poof*, just like that.

also, i hate it even more if you start answering Comprehension questions without first reading the passage. don't speak unless you know what's going on. thank you very much. and you, if i didn't recall clearly, made the same fucking mistake, i'm trying to help, i'm not coercively selling the idea, so which position are you in to think i am? jeez.

we shall now continue studying. i think i'm falling sick.

-SIGNING OFF
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munch munch crunch, donkey punch?

ok, the title for this post was totally unnecessary. but still, it reminds of that equally unnecessary event that brought the whole damn class in sec 2 to the attention of MOE. hmmm, that event simply taught us that when dinosaurs crunch, no banging is involved, or maybe dinosaurs did have sex with each other while having lunch. i'm being CREATIVE here, you have to use a bit of your brains.

anyway, i've got more angpows than usual this year, must have been the heat, made my relatives red-crazy, still, i stand to gain-financially, i hereby promise to love my relatives more, wahahaha. love is good, goodness is life, life runs with money. money=good.

the snacks in thy house are just waiting to be eaten, the hebi-hiams, too many, but too delicious, must....(munch)....stop...(munch munch)....eating.......(collapses). ok, after typing this down, i've just come to realise that maybe putting the exams after CNY has its pro(s). you will eat in moderation to prevent yourself from getting sick. there, i've said it, agree?

-SIGNING OFF
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delayed CNY, yippeeyaiyo.

if anybody didn't know why this year's CNY is in February, i think they should go out and experience more of the Chinese culture, if you're chinese and you didn't know, then shame on you, hahahaha.

anyway..this will be the glooooomiest CNY ever, why? Think exams and grades, that's why. boohoo, when people from other polys go out to "pai nian", i'm left with a sombre mood,no joy. i think the only joy will come from the money and the new year food and goodies themselves, cos i see no other joy in visiting the relatives THIS year and maybe the next 2 as well. why can't the exams be sat for on another period, sheesh. if the CNY period was meant to be 15 days long, WE WILL STAY HAPPY FOR 15 FREAKING DAYS, not SEVEN, WHICH WE ARE SO SELFISHLY ENTITLED TO. Thanks for denying the rest of the days. that's why i hate the school's admin system.

i was watching the annual CNY programme on channel 8 just now, the call-in segment was damn funny, all the uncles & aunties trying to win the cash money, but answering the questions with half a cupful of knowledge. or maybe, its just the anxiety of having your voice on TV, i dunno, it's still funny to hear them stumble on their words. hahaha.

i hope i don't pig out too much, i have 3 irresistable container-fulls of pineapple tarts and hebi-hiams each, can't wait to savour the first piece, then the second piece, then the third piece, then the fourth piece, then the fifth piece, then the x-th piece (where x is an unknown integer).

ok, i'm gonna whack my POM now, hope this Sem 1.2 ends well for me and the rest of my classmates. wahaha.


-SIGNING OFF
DLC:P

pop pop pop pop pop pop pop pop pop pop pop pop pop pop pop pop pop pop pop pop pop poppop pop poppop pop poppop ***

Lightening Up 101

Here's a lame attempt at reinventing this stressful lifestyle.

1.) Yo mama so fat, that when she walked past the TV, i missed the whole season of CSI Miami.

2.) Yo mama so fat, that the last time she cried, she was in south-east asia celebrating boxing day 2004.

3.) Yo mama so fat, that her only source of time was big ben.

4.) Yo mama so stupid, she bought houses with monopoly money.

ok, i'm done. curtains close.

it's not fair la, i bet the o levels this year are much easier than what i sat for, i'll never forget that 14 and 19 staring in my face. geez, thank god i found course, which i've happily settled in for almost a year now. Now, some 25000 children will fill our shoes coming this next academic year, tough luck, 2 more years to NS.

jog, i'd better. you can do it, tiger.

-SIGNING OFF
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just my luck

it's really [insert title here] man, to think i've got tards and sloths to work in a project group, shit man. i've got a whole lot of ranting here to do, so bear with me until say 2nd March.

i've never seen a more irresponsible person(cept on tv though) than this certain fellow called Chee Yong Min, he's an oily, lazy,toothy bastard who will not give a shit over your demands. let's set this straight, he's in year 2, i'm in year 1, his contributions are much lesser than mine (i didn't see him utter a word during the brainstorming session) and he dares show attitude and tells me to get a life. i want him to roll down a hill and never come back. if i had to eradicate him myself, i would use a 9mm and shoot the entire magazine into his nuts.

responsibility-wise, he's too slackened, for a year 2, it's like a body without a head, no worries. hang ten attitude, well fuck that, if we fail, you'd be like that, suffering from brain damage.

i think if anyone saw him, they'd wrench his damn fucking greasy face.


enough.

ok, now for the happy happy part.
i'm going to consider these few jobs:

1.)NTUC storeboy
2.)Asiacom again, this time, they called, so it kinda rekindled the flame of hope
3.)Some banquet job
4.)same old method-classifieds lor.

now to complete my financial statements. also, i need to prepare that 9mm.

-SIGNING OFF
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brain lint

i think i have lint in my brain, something's clogging it up:

1.) i can't think properly, one thought is momentarily lost before a new one comes up
2.) my memory is fugged up, i can't remember my tasks for projects
3.) i can only remember 20% of what i've learnt in school
4.) i nose-bled several times
5.) my body's balance is fugged, i can't walk straight
6.) my attention span is easily affected by new things
7.) i keep thinking people are against me
8.) i keep forgetting to do work
9.) i cannot sleep well
10.) i'm moody most of the time

another problem being, i really can't stop worrying, i don't know why, everytime i skip lectures, i feel like i've just committed some heinous crime.

but certain issues just require me to worry worry and worry. my CDS, that's possibly the root cause of my lack of motivation/memory loss. i've been thrown so much work, playing leader to a group of year 2 students isn't funny, especially if only half of them listens to you. half my group is lazy, half my project is undone and half my life is gone. besides, what's not to worry when my class' other group (i.e. gunz's group) is already done? they've not only drafted the final business plan, they've also done the slides. us? (.....tumble weed.....)

i want some orange juice, like 1 litre of it. and macdonald's to go along with it.

maybe i should go see a doctor or a chinese physician, i don't feel right.

i'll try to cure myself with a hearty dinner of tze char and mahjong.


-SIGNING OFF
DLC:P

kindness doesn't beget positive attention

Trust me on this one, showing concern in Singapore is nothing but a pure waste of effort, time and energy. The receiver is nothing but a leech feeding on your efforts and none the giver. I have been reassured that care and concern are futile actions made by us to induce long or mid-term change in character. you can only capture their attention for 3 minutes, 5 minutes max. Over this past week have i been experiencing such bullshit.

Monday, helped some guy pick up his wallet which had fallen on the ground, guess what he said

"Um,ok." and he proceeded to run off without fulfilling my expectations of him saying, thanks.

I felt like um,ok-ing his ass with my cleaver.

well, this time the receiver did nothing negative, but it was more like fate toying with me. While going back home on wednesday night, i went to the MRT station to see a busker, i gave him $1 and afterwards, several coins rolled off my wallet. Nice one.

On overall, i don't think anyone has ever seen this happen, here's a scenario, imagine someone who doesn't know he certain topic over some module you're doing, he/she approaches you for help, you gladly oblige and spend time to assist that person, sacrificing your own learning opportunity then the person thanks you for your help in the short run. HE/SHE IS NEVER GOING TO REFER TO THIS INCIDENT AGAIN,NOT IN ANY WAY HE/SHE WOULD.

i feel like i'm being treated like mere dog droppings, people only recognise your efforts longer if your help is monetary aid or something tangible, they're not going to say, "hey, you've helped me score well for this test, hey, thanks!" no, they'll most likely think this way, "it's all me, me and me alone, my effort is king,you're SUPPOSED to help me because I'M YOUR FUCKING RESPONSIBILITY", well screw that. that's how materialistic people are once i think back to my school days through out. i shan't mention names, cos it's just too childish to put the blame on them, its up to them whether they read this post or not to self-reflect. either that, or i don't know what i did wrong, but i'm pretty sure i fucked no one on any deal.

Furthermore, the moment you start doing something wrong, they fuck you in the ass for it, no shit. i do it too. say in cases of projects, everybody is doing this without first thinking of whatever system is going through or whatever consequences there may be at hand, they just shoot their traps off. talk about motivation.

there's this particular person though, i want to give credit mention, who does all the above. i hope you reach the top and fall downwards. cos i always feel that way, feeling good after doing something nice and reaching to the bottom with his/her reactions to my actions.

it just doesn't pay to be kind la, neither shall care and concern reciprocate itself to you. unless i move to a place with no discrimination, no qualms and stress, then shall i find myself taking back my words.
why am i saying all this, people wouldn't give a shit about my opinions anyway, i might as well be a ghost, immaterial and nothing more than a perceptional spawn.

so people, remember we are all selfish beings, we pick up friendships because we want to take advantages over each other, only thing being, some do it more often than the other without realization

-SIGNING OFF
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the school is the ass and we are the bowls.

ultimately, the school serves as a facility or institute of education but it also keeps your brain busy and blood boiling. it is the second best enforcer of stress (first being work).

well, my POM project has just been submitted on friday, thank the lords half of it is done and i have to say, well done my group mates! now, let's scratch our heads and think how the heck are we to present (say for the slides part) our proposal without looking like clowns or last-minute understudies during a skit.

well, marketing fundamentals has been sailing quite smoothly, we just need diagrams, double structures for our content and we're set for an A, or else we'll all be in deep shit. I only scored a C+ for the mid-sem test, how pathetic is that!

anyway, this is how i did, i can safely say it's about the same as the first semester's test scores. -.-

Business Statistics: A
Marketing Fundamentals: C+
Business Accounting 2: B+ ( i just need 1 more mark for an A, but noooo..its not theory, geez)
Principles of Management: A
Microeconomics: B

well, i just want a GPA above 3.5 this time so i can at least hope for an SMU entrance test. foog!

my CDS group mates aren't helping me to attain that. Let's just say that i picked the wrong part to do (cos it takes a whole lot of time) and my assistant keeps doing my parts, which i have to claim credit for to pass. yaaa-hoo. He also just gave me a spin-around to manage by editing his summary draft, trust me, its bad and he's older than me. i want to die.

-SIGNING OFF
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i am the sun, says a test.

wow, i think the weather-god or whomever (pardon my lack of knowledge) saw my blog post/ heard my endless lamenting on the weather. the sun is back up to shine and will one day bake us all crispy brown.

i'm currently typing this blogpost with half my sanity, attention span and strength, i did gym and much project-related work and i feel like a tired work horse who just can't fall asleep.

anyway, even though my blog isn't popular as much as how it is NEVER read rather, i will still continue to write for my biggest fan, me. the show must go on!

so anyway, it never occured to me that my body can actually take so much strain and stress with so little sleep. i feel sorry for my brain, it's not getting enough rest and yet it's doing so much thinking. already in my project groups its very important to submit ideas, but with little sleep, it almost seemed impossible. then, without me realizing, i gave lots of ideas, i don't know how, maybe its because i didn't want to let my group mates down, especially kai xuan, cos she works REALLY hard. or maybe i don't want to taint my own grades, could be a good mix of both, but ultimately, it still boils down to my personality, i don't give up easily.

but this persistence will kill me one day, i don't know how, but it may. or maybe some brain disease derived from this constant lack of sleep. or maybe, heart disease.

oh well, back to the light of matters.

i was watching The Arena on Channel 5 for 2 consecutive weeks, oh my lordy lord lord, RI lost to Loyang Sec, it was so damn amusing to see them lost. here are the reasons i gathered;
i.) boy 1 was some monotonous toad, boy 2 was alright la, boy 3 was some fat snob trying to speak like some duke from old england.
ii.) during the last round, RI failed to identify Loyang's cause, which was damn funny cos the fat toad was insisting that they are reflecting the wrong image.
iii.) they got intimidated by the butch from loyang sec.

lol. and MGS beat St. Nicholas Girls, of which the former took a thorough bashing. 3 words, out of point.

ah well, i'm off to complete thy project of harm. todaloo?

-SIGNING OFF
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in (light) the dark of torrential rain and the gloom

oh, so we thought that the torrential rain was over, hogwash! it caused ANOTHER flood, in fact, a few more floods, not here, but in the region. but its damn frustrating la, the days are always downers, the only thing positive note i can find through this rain is the temperature and how it allows long naps. sleeping through has never been so...comforting.

the rain has obviously gotten many of us sick as well, in the turn of events, i am well once again and i seek to keep myself healthy till the end of the year AND i don't use dettol, i heard that over-usage can cause conformity, the viruses start attacking if you withdraw the usage. wow, it's kinda like a drug.

ok, i shall wrap it up here, cos i was supposed to do my Statistics and Marketing Fundamentals tutorials at 10pm, it is now 12 am and still their both not done. fuck this: creating financial statements out of practically nothing. making sense from nothing is really either:
virtually impossible or just plain difficult. i plan to sleep at 3.3o tonight.

quote of the day: how cold IS cold?

-SIGNING OFF
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the new year's gift(s)

i was right when i said the flu bug is so fucking back to haunt us ! the coughing and sneezing i've been hearing from the people around me and of course, my incessant coughing on wednesday night was enough to prove the...umm..widespread epidemic.

before you know it, a couple of centuries later, BAM! the common cold and the humble coughing becomes something that will literally implode your very lungs.

well, at least i'm at the pink of health(or rather, was in the pink of health,it's like an exclusive club), haven't gotten sick in 10 months ++! a new record! comparatively speaking, the school we call secondary is much dirtier than what you can expect in poly. take that, you uniform wearing pipsqueaks.

good news is, i found my tiny bob, it was still lying, untouched on the computer's desk. what honest teachers we have in siglap eh? i wanted to relive once more, the hunger pangs that we had by just being in school for 3 hours like we did in sec 4. the food, nasi ayam, bagedel to name some, to die for la. buy until the aunties gave us discounts, so shiok. like they say, don't starve a student.

-SIGNING OFF
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videos

2006?

Happy new year?
happy 2007.

my resolution is to be more....proactive.

-SIGNING OFF
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