and so that concludes a long fifteen days

this was one chinese new year that i'll never forget

1.) had to study for the exams
1.1) wasted my fucking time. (you know who you are)
2.) sudden surge of ang pows
3.) so much hebi hiam and pineapple tarts (i used much instead of many, go figure)
4.) this.

after releasing those stress-balls (exams ring any bells?) in thy body, i've reached a high, posthaste. it wasn't a good feeling, it was something that was more of a rush rush job, something i don't really like doing (even though that's what i always do or end up doing). so high, so confused, so tempted, so many sweet nothings.

i've always chucked this thought in a corner, never wanting to rethink about it, i was afraid, so many things i've heard about, so much so, it's a gamble i wasn't ready to place a bet upon, but still eventually did..........and lost. maybe things could've been better if i just kept my trap shut, things couldn't have changed, we'll still be the same bunch of people we've seen and known for that long 5 or 6 years. no nudges or teasing is ever going to spur that stress anymore, it just doesn't respond to anything anymore.

i don't know if anybody's ever known, i've never been ok when it comes to handling negative responses. some part of me just wants to run, then the other part of me wants to fight it. till they both want to convert and just face the reality unleashed upon them. i believe that sounds a wee bit like christianity, but yea. prolly few of you, my close friends will know this part of me.

this chucklehouse isn't always open, i'm not a 24/7 happy fun time box. but i'll stay open as long as possible, just to feed those stricken with unhappiness.


ps: heads up! i'm writing a song about mr kek to a relatively well known christmas jingle, so be sure to watch out! why am i doing this? it's a nice reality escape la.

-SIGNING OFF
DLC:P